11:38 AM

Oh boy life has me feeling an abundance of emotions. For the past year or so, I've been thinking about my future. Everything about my future. From finishing school, to moving out, to traveling, to what kind of home and family I want when it's my time. What to do first? What is better? How do I do it? I have so many ambitions and dreams I am whole heartedly set on that I absolutely intend on accomplishing. But things are starting to go a different direction. The road my goals are on are suddenly starting to turn. How do I stop it? Can I stop it?

I used to think you need to make tons of money to be happy. I used to think having a whole lot meant being happy. I've been realizing that the less you have and the more you do (accomplishing dreams) is the key to a happy life.

"Life is what you make it." I stand by that 100% percent. I've been feeling a sense of failure and self-doubt lately and I haven't had time for myself to sit and think or weave or read or just do something that makes me simply..happy. I've been so caught up in school and work and my life is so much more stressful than it ever has been. But then I think about "life is what you make it". I can't sit around and feel negatively about myself. I need, I must continue to push forward and get through all of my toughest obstacles. I can't give up. I can't just say, "I don't get this", "I don't know what to do", "I can't do this". I need to say "I can"/"I will". & I can. & I will. Life is definitely what you make it. It saddens me when people have such a negative outlook on everything in their life and no matter what, they don't think of anything positive. They dwell in negativity. Why? Oh please, someone tell me why.